mama.

Tomorrow will be mother's day. i honestly admit that i am not that iloveyouma-showy- typish of a person. but it doesn't define me just like that. i am more transparent and become real emotional when someone tries to put a word to my mom, that is when i really wanna freak out. Mama and I were close but i dont normally say everything to her, but she says everything to me and this you gotta take it me, mother's instinct really do exist. i wont debate on that one. thats why im effin scared even on white lies that i might say so save it. hehee. this time i wanna dedicate this post to her. not because in lieu for the mother's day occasion but because i seldom to. in my 29 years, i have always asked myself, where do i get the strength and determination in everything i do. i got that both from my from parents, but mostly because of my mom. not because she's tough as well, but she's the other way around. she's a bit vulnerable with the things going around, that made me tough, i need to be her steel. i need to be the shoulder to cry on, i need to be a stalwart for her. that is how i got the sturdiness in me. its already a cliche when making a statement about their mom but hey, sometimes the corniest thing is the true ones, but for me this has always been how i described my mother in all heights! "Mama is the reason for my breathing" she is like the source of everything and anything that i can ever encompass. i may not say i love you everyday ma, but my heart is shouting every second of it. I love you Ma!  Happy Mother's Day Ma and to all mothers out there :))