people of my year for 2011.

this blog im having right now is very personal, very close to my heart. these are the people that made some impact on my life last 2011. different strokes for different folks. these are some of the people that influenced me in a lot of ways. i was inspired to do this not just because to give credit to them but its also a reminder for myself that i wont be who i am right now without them Ü

ida and ara padiernos.

padiernos sisters. in life its not everyday that you meet people that you know that its for keeps. but with them, i can attest that its possible. we dont meet regularly but when we do, its a super blast and im looking forward on more years with them because its not everyday that you meet people who remain grounded and humble

omc/hp family.

my omc and hp family is such a great blessing for me. i have met different people in the past but these people has contributed a lot in my life in terms of dealing life. professionally i have learned a LOT because of the support system i have with them. i never thought that workplace can just be your playground when you are around with these folks.

rosely mendoza.

my future sister in law. i can never imagine my brother Patrick ending up with anyone but rosely. whats amazing is that we clicked because we have the same humor crack and for me thats more than enough to love her dearly. but sliding a bit, i am just amaze how she was brought up well by her parents, her family mirrors of what my family has and thats more than enough proof that she is the right one for my brother. looking forward for their wedding this year, Yay!

jagger family.

these people are my breather. after all the stressful world you have from the outside, they are the ones that makes me feel light after my long day. makes me feel good that they will save my ass whenever im on trouble. jagger has opened different perspective of what friendship really is and its not just that because its MORE than that...  

shiela pantino.

she definitely adds rhythm into me. if you are down, she is the right person to talk to because she has all the right words to say to make you feel better, truly an epitome of taking chances and believing. she is one person that i can turn into outside my real world but still manage to make me feel that im in no difference at all. she made a big impact on me for the last 4years. 

mina lopez.

faith is the reason why i look up to her. sis is the kind of person that in spite/despite of the struggles we go through you can still sense the strength of this person. i have learned that faith will always play a vital role in our lives and we just have to see through it. and mina is enough proof of it.    

pamela papilla.

my constant confidante whether sad or happy ones. no dull moments with my pampee. we can spend 24/7 talking without running out of things to say. and whats so good about it, we talk like we are on a stage cracking humor here and there but still there's a sense on what we are talking about and you will realize you've been laughing your hearts out! i cant remember how many times i cried and laughed with her. 

patricia ylagan.

my buddy for almost 20years. we even call each other "TOL" and by it you knew that  its more than just that. we may debate on some things because of our differences but those conflicts has been the steadfast of our friendship all these years. no questions asked she's been there for me for more than half of my life. :) 

 

maybelle untalan.

we fight and bicker with small issues, we argue a lot but still we end up chasing the same waves. we maybe like mutt and jeff or tom and jerry but still we managed to be each others comfort zone. she just knew everything about me that just by a wink of an eye she knows it already. maybs indeed is my true wingman. 

mama and papa.


having them on my list is a no brainer. for the simplest reason that they are the reason for of my existence. they celebrated their 30th wedding anniversary last year and God im so lucky that everyday i have seen the love they share for each other. and someday i also dream of having a partner that would last just like my ermats and erpats :)

bye 2011, hello 2012.

another year has passed. 2011 was somewhat rocky in terms of "friends". had a fall out with some one who is very dear to me but found way to at least make some amends early this year (which Iam very thankful!). with my last post from last year it only reflects how the deep the wound was. not the normal stuff you would fight about among your friends. its not something like you missed someone's birthday, its not like you get dead drunk and you happen to spill her most embarrassing moment, its not like you ditch out your barkada getaway just because you made some other plans with your partner. this one is BIG. did not see it coming. didn't thought that this one would break us apart. this involves RESPECT, something you cant buy. something that each and everyone deserves somehow. this people has been my steadfast all these years. what i am right now and whatever choices i made is because they had something to do with it. directly or indirectly, they have an impact on everything i do and say. it breaks me sometimes because at one point of my life, i fought for them. but now, its all up to Him, to make build the bridges again. if when? i don't know and am not sure anymore. 

my personal career, good and bad. i finally bid goodbye to a company that molded me in a hundred ways. has given the opportunity to showcase my capability on meeting up with my tasks. a chance for me to grow and go beyond of what i am used to do. i was exposed on a different world but was able to adjust and got fit with it. but in every growth you need to make a move out to explore new things, to share what you have learned and be thankful from the company that taught me those things. 

my family, its one part of me that i can always be PROUD OF. the comfort of having one is a complete proof of my faith with Man Up There. and if this is something i can have each and every year, i have no other complaints but Give Thanks to the Big Fella! i just wish nothing but good health among everyone of us. because at end of the day, they are the reason of my being and my existence in this world.

Hello 2012, this year will be my 30th of existence. like everyone else, i want to make a difference. i don't have to do something crazy this year, but i hope i can do something that make sense. and i am looking forward of making big choices, leap to greater heights, and one HEALTHY 2012 for me! CHEERS for the great year ahead! Ü 

favorite shirt.

Friends, we are being put into a big test again. This time I'm no longer sure if we can still overcome it or will it make us put in a bad taste. Been roaming around the circle but what we have is something that you cant put into waste. We have built this for more than 10 years or so and some are 15years and more. Our story maybe amazing for some, but it doesn't tell the whole thing of it. Back fighting is not our stuff neither bitching with one another. Because there's more to that. A deeper wound that its hard to heal, something that you would just pray to let go of it. After all the teaming up, bashing each other, take sides or so, after all that has been said and done, end of the day, you still ends up realizing that they are still responsible on molding you of what you are right now and what not. Our story is already a cliche on others but our friendship is something we will carry for the rest of our lives and every time we look back, you can still manage to carry that certain smile because you knew once in your life, they made a difference on you and you cant just turn your back away from it in a snap. You may have a stain on your favorite shirt but it can still be washed away, and still ends up wearing that same shirt that gives you the comfort no matter what..

rock.

Ever since i was a kid i hated rock. I always have this impression that people linked to rock is always being associated with drugs, alcohol and worst is suicidal tendencies. One of the few examples is Kurt Cobain, the main vocals of band Nirvana. He died at an early age of 27yo. Was in rehab in and out. had detox but same ordeal of withdrawal. He was considered as one of the legacy in rock industry. 

Next we have James "Jim" Morrison, guy behind The Doors band. His Rolling Stones front-cover is one of the best seller issue of all time. He was at his peak when he died at same age of 27yo. But until now his death is still being disputed. One thing for sure, it still being associated with drugs and alcohol. 

Lastly, who wouldn't know the King of Rock n Roll, Elvis Presly himself. Found dead on his mansion bathroom and believed to have drugs misuse for years which is still remains to be proven as the family kept it away from the media. 

Mainly the reason why I am blogging about rock is because I tried to open my mind to the soul of this genre. And its not bad at all. Been on my playlist all day long and to be honest the lyrics, when you get to listen carefully there is some kind of a depth on it. Theme of sounds maybe predictable on some people but for me its more than that. Misinterpretation is always part of something that's getting on their peak and this is one of those. Soul is what this music carries when you take it deep within. There is something in the lyrics that will captivate the attention. If music is played with the wrong bunch of people that's when you lose the touch and you began to use alternatives to create music that sometimes leads to tragic ending. 


These are some of the artists I really admire. Amazing sound. Careers on top. Good music. 

Coldplay*Florence and the Machine*Incubus
Oasis*Ben Rector*Maroon5
The Script*Dashboard Confessional*James Morrison

  

tattoed.

Serena: Are you sure? Because I know this may sound crazy or selfish or... like I'm living in the past or something. But you were the love of my life, Dan. I don't know, I just thought I was yours too.

thai cravings.

Because of boredom last Monday, i ended up stuck in my tv tube browsing some good shows. And one show caught my attention for one reason, FOOD!! It features the latest finds around the metro, may it be food, fashion, trends, travel, culture, movies ETC. At that time they were into food. They were trying out Mango Tree Bistro in Greenbelt 5. Ordering your food is not their ordinary coz customers were provided with IPad!! Yep! You heard it right! Customers get to see the actual pictures on an IPad. Imagine how how cool is that! :) And guess where am I the very next day?? Not in Greenbelt but in Trinoma branch. Because of my personal love on Thai food with all the spices and herbs this is definitely a "Must Try" for me. These what we got. BURP!!! Ooppss :D

Tom Yum is an instant favorite on me. Perfect one!
Since I'm into soups, what a way to put spice on it matching it
with big slices of shrimps. Need say more? 

Pad Thai, one of Thailand's best.
Close on having that authentic taste! 

Gai Thai Krai Yang, own version of lemon grass chicken with perfection,
served with  Northeastern dipping lemon sauce. 

I am definitely going back and will try their best seller deep fried breaded shrimp cake and this much talk about Pla Krapong Neung Ma Now, in short, its a huge fish dish place on an oval pot which has candles under floating in a sea of sauce. I will see you SOON! :)

making a turn.

after all that has been said and done. all the hurtful words that has crushed us. it all boils down to no one wins this bout. we both lose the game. lessons learned and time to move on. i may have been quiet the whole time scared that if i say words you might leave me in the dark upside down, scarred with all the painful thoughts. what i am right now is the person i become after all the things that molded me to be a better person. what hurts is you are no longer to witness that. our story is what's gonna linger me as i turn my back away from you. it was a struggle trying to win your trust. we were tussling over our personal issues. i am being pushed back against the wall every time we fight the same reasons. i got tired. we both got tired. that was the hardest part coz no one wants to take the fight anymore. we were restless. now that we're done, friendship goes down the drain unnoticeable. part of me died...
i may have died but knowing that we were better off this way then im throw in the towel and accepts this defeat. im making a swirl on my decision of letting you go.. i had to and i need to, knowing the downside of me losing you. im walking out of the dream i used to have and as i take this big turn, im bringing that dream with me. thank you for coming into my life..... sorry if my efforts still makes you feel less of a person until the very end, i tried.. i really do. word war ends here. and i will end it with our story. story that will always starts from that vivid memory when you asked my name. thank you for asking me because when i looked back, i dont think i will ever have that guts. thank you for sharing that story with me and emptily thank you for giving me enough reasons to let you go for good. ily.