Tuesday, April 24, 2012

overdue.

i have been caught up with so many things for few weeks now. i haven't even been able to scribble on my planner because of some crazy stuffs been going on. i am to post my way overdue Lenten experience which was about 2 week old story. even my Caramoan escape, took a month to post the whole survivor experience. ok now that i am back to my senses again  made a vow to myself to write at least 3-4 in a week. wah! that's my punishment for not being able to write dang! bad chinggat! i dont want that guilt feeling of skipping my passion that i love the most. not that im lazy because that would be the lamest reason i can think of. but i have to say its been manic i have been through for the last few weeks. but i am definitely back on track now. I MISS IT!!  

Saturday, April 21, 2012

CARAMOAN: oriental experience

Last year I did not get to have a summer trip with my friends, didn't remember what was the reason but I think everyone were swamped with everything. so I made sure that summer of this year will be a blast. just few months back when me and my bestfriend went to Palawan. and that was a breathtaking experience, I just have so many things to talk about that trip. but this one right here, our Naga, Bicol and Caramoan trip is A-MAZING!!! it was a trip of the real survivors. me and my four closest buddies has been captivated by the places we went through. and MAN!! Caramoan is a killer!! we wanna shout with so much gladness on each islands that we hopped into. we don't mind going back and see all those scenic views and beautiful islands. we were like tourist saying "shet! ang ganda pala talaga ng Pilipinas!" often when summer breaks in, the first trip they have on mind is a tussle between Bora and Puerto Galera. il be completely honest that i haven't been to those places and oh puhlease dont ask me why! but now that ive been at Caramoan i have feeling that my next trips should always be comparable to this beautiful place. Filipinos just dont have the idea that when they try to make these trips to places which are not that familiar on some people (i admit i dont know caramoan til i got there) they will get astounded with the feeling. because i myself was surprised that we have a haven like this here in  our country. lovely!
 we got to Naga early in the morning, our first stop was to find a cheap hotel. when i say cheap it doesnt have to be that real cheap deal. but we just want a place that we can leave our bags because we will be rushing to go to Bicol, go back at night on same day and prep for early morning call time next day for our Caramoan trip. 
Albay, Bicol
one of the highlights of our Bicol trip is the Cagswa Ruins or Church, a church stood there during the 18th century but February 1, 1815, Mayon Volcano erupted and walloped the countryside including this church , nothing left but this belfry tower remained above ground.  and this tower has been the main attraction of the tourist that came over. and we were lucky that there was this woman who approached us that will be willing to take our pictures and we will just give her a tip hehehe. but we were surprised with the pictures taken because photos has a comic touch but still was able to get the back drop of the great view behind. 

"Cagsawa Ruins"
"Hanging Bridge"
famous "Sili Ice Cream"
"Mayon Volcano"

"Daraga Church"
Caramoan, Camarines Sur
Caramoan is the tip of the iceberg. our goal is to survive because expectations are set that its not gonna be easy going in there. our call time was 4am, knowing that we just slept at 2am!! What!! so that means we have to be up by 3am because we have to prep ourselves for the next day trip, well you cant really say next day trip because its more of a next hour trip coz of that 1hour sleep difference haha! ok so we got picked up by our service in our hotel then an hour drive going to Sabang port. from the port going to Caramoan is 2hrs boat ride!!! yes you heard it right! i have anticipated the worst, 2 of my friends and some of the passengers that are kids starting puking halfway of the trip and it was hard to bear because i am close of having one. it was not easy coz of its big and killer waves and for us that was the longest 2hrs we could ever be in! but when we get to Caramoan... its just so....soooo A-BEAUTIFUL!!! What a Paradise! 

our Caramoan experience is another one for the books. and this is one place that i see myself coming back for more. no doubt that reality tv show Survivor keeps on having getting to this place because of the great view and the serenity of this place. i myself, fell in love.... :))

Monday, April 2, 2012

lets take bath.

having their own bathtubs for girls i think is a kind of weakness that we all cant deny. just imagine after a long day of work or maybe a rugged maniac workout you get to jumped into your tubs  with dim lights mixed it with an Al Green or a Lenny Kravitz hit songs from your Ipod then light in your scented candles on the sides. VOILA!! i don't think you'll ever want to get up. its a kind of feeling that makes you relax your brain cells after that debate you had with your boss, after that 10km run you just had or worst, you just decided to cool off with your boyfriend and all you ever wanted is some peace. imagine the set up, bathtub will be your bestest friend!  




still the best way to partner your tub is good music and scented candles that definitely makes you go woosa all the way. why Al Green and Lenny Kravitz? Not the usual but when it comes to voice that will soothes you entirely, these are the first names that popped into my head. start your playlist with Green's 'Lets Stay Together' and Kravitz 'Again' and favorite of mine 'It Aint Over til Its Over' again CLASSIC GENRE!! 
matching your playlist with scented candles (just be careful that when you light these, no linen near it or else!) i guess its safe to say you can light at least 8-10 candles. brownout lang ang peg?!? hahaha! and when you all got this covered, you have all the right in the world to make senti and go emo the whole night. save the scrub and body wash. bathtub is taking charge on ya. 

Saturday, March 31, 2012

15 things.

15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy

Here is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:
1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?”Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.
“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.

4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.

9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only fear we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another,  attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves.  You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

skyscraper.

been listening to this song for awhile now but i haven' really thought that the lyrics would break me. yes im WASAK!!! lets give credit to Demi Lovato on making me sigh with a heavy heart. GoodJob ka ah! pero winner ung song. minsan talaga kung ano pa yung nakakasakit yun pa talaga panalo. tsk! 1st verse says it all. again. wasak!


Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make feel like
There's nothing left of me?  
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

N.A.C.

ok i havent really sorted out the pictures we took from our last summer adventure at Naga, Albay and Caramoan Islands. but one thing i can say, this tops all our my summer outings. it maybe cliche on some and the experience is still vivid and i know for a fact that i cant explain it on one post. that is why im reserving another blog post for that. for now this is all i got. maybe just one-fourth of our vacay. ciao! :)


Friday, March 16, 2012

kryptonite.

when you say kryptonite first thing that hits your brain is the one that you encounter reading on a comic books. superhero character comes into the picture and since wiki is my bestfriend nowadays, i searched for it and uncover these superman terms yada yada. why am i writing something about kryptonite? well first, this would be total nonsense if it hasn't something to do with me. i was watching some reruns of Zooey's New Girl  and there was this one episode that sorta nailed my senses. she was kinda having hard time making a big step forward after that break up with pseudo ex-boyfriend, struggling in moving on because her character here is someone who is too nice, too good to be true, the usual happy go lucky type that always makes her feel good on simple things around her. she loves to mimic, making funny faces, and when she thinks all is fcuked up she mends in a weird way. she sings, she thinks of theme song of her emotional state, she even watch the famous flick "Dirty Dancing" all over again just because she gets the kind of gratification in mending the pain. ok going back, why really kryptonite??! well on that episode alone, i see myself on Zooey's character. it was only when Jake Johnson  (Nick) utter these lines that it finally dawned on me.


he refers 'kryptonite' as someone's weakness, depriving her to make the biggest step of all, THAT is getting M-A-D, letting it all out, fighting back. and that's all ME. back in my younger days, i was this short fused person who jumps over the fence when im provoked. i am like that. but as i grew older i've started to make sense on my initial reactions, say bye bye with flight and fight kind of response. i made my own anger management. i had maintained that kind of patience and sense of control. but with all of these, there's a big downside. since i tend to overcome the anger and keep it all to myself, there's a feeling of numbness in me. and that was bad. i tend to skip the emotional thing part and let it pass. i dont normally get mad in a snap. not me knowing it was all piling up. i was like a big pail of water waiting to be filled up and water will start to spill. water was my emotions. faucet was my source of all kinds of emotions.


i was like this in everyone. that's why every time my weakness is being hit, i get to vulnerable with it, i use weakness to cover up my emotions instead of dealing with them, and what do they do? some takes advantage of it, and some are scared. little did i know i need to fight back but it was too late. for last few weeks i had some cases of flaring up and outburst. i was like a spark plug, i got mad and i finally blew up! even i got scared of myself because it took years before i could actually express it. got provoked this time. got to the point wherein i have to say, enough is enough. and sadly, it happened to least of the people i expected to. but now that i have learned the difference of these flaws. dont give in too much and dont give less. its always good to stay in between because thats when you will see the different perspectives of being neutral. i am now starting to take control of the situation. its not bad to react sometimes. if you feel bad about something, express it. don't let it pass without venting it out because the more you do that, the more it get worse. in dealing with people, don't always expect that they will be there always as you what you have stand to do. sometimes expecting the same drill will make you fall real hard. end of the day, you will realize who are these people that is worth sticking by and we don't need kryptonites.